This photograph instantly reminded me of solitary nights in Hong Kong when I would walk in front of my block and just watch the inhabited squares of a nearby building. It amused me to see a square light up, a figure enter the space and live their normal lives right in front of my eyes. It was especially fascinating to see kids run around, sometimes straight to the glass window to look at the world outside, completely unaware of a girl looking straight back at them.
(Photo from jingc)
This is the phase of my life that embodies the phrase “mixed emotions.” I am happy to be going back home, I am sad to be leaving. There is an innumerable amount of things to look forward to, and so many people I’ll be missing. Weekends, runs, movies, drives, dinners, conversations. There is a lot to miss.
It is very peculiar that at this juncture, I find myself alone. No matter how hard I try to explain to anyone or however much I write here, how these final moments feel is sacredly mine and mine alone. Hong Kong, Maine, California. It’s been a while since I’ve had a hearty goodbye. But of course, as my eldest brother put it a long, long time ago, “It’s not goodbye, it’s just see you later.”